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Another great show off weekend!

I went to the Spa Excess on Friday and Saturday night past.Its rare for me to go two nights in a row.I can only usually stand going one night. But it been nice out and i have not been working,so i am always thinking about showing off and being an exhibitionist! Still trying to go nude camping at Turkey point.Only issue is getting a drive.There is still hope through my one friend...but when? Friday i arrived at 830pm. First thing i did was get naked and head out to the patio to smoke a joint! I had lots of eyes on me as i stood there and puffed away! This guy laying on a sun bed off to my right was stearing hard at my cock.I had a cock ring on,and soon my dick started to get a bit hard! I was standing in a bit of an alcove with two chairs behind me. A guy came out and sat in one of them just 3 feet back.He also had a good view of my cock from the side. This caused me to rise to full hardness! I heard him say "WoW" and "Nice!" He then said in a low voice "you like being naked and getting hard in front of other guys,it turns you on doesn't it!" THat statement made me so i hard...Cause he new exactly what i was doing and why! I turned my head to him and answered "Yes!" "I love doing this!" He answered with "well its really hot!....keep up the good work!" I was totally pumped up by this...and my 8 inches was enjoying that about 10 guys were all around ,smoking or relaxing and looking at my hard-on.Impressed by it or not....i was doing what i liked...showing off! I hung out at the bar,nude with just knee length white socks with 3 baby blue stripes at the top,and a cock ring.I stood at the bar in a place that everyone coming in the lounge,would see me from the side and back. At times i was semi or totally hard! There were some hot guys at the bar and it was easy to stay arroused! I saw to Japanese guys playing pool. Both kinda cute! I bounced by boner over and watched them play.They talked to each other and stared at my cock...which became hard! I danced a little to the heavy drum music.When they finished there game they asked if i wanted to play them. I said sure,and we played a kind of snooker. I stayed semi and totally hard throughout! They seemed to enjoy watching!and one asked me if i was uncut...which is obvious lol,but i said yes and pulled my skin back a bit...which caused one of them to explain oooohhh! Later on he wrapped his hand around my cock and jerked it a bit and rubbed my pre cum around my head and shaft! I get tons of precum and sometimes its dripping so i usually smear it on my shaft or on my chest...or onto a sock or whatever.It tastes good! If i wipe it on a sock ...it turns me on to lick it off or rub it around my lips and face! We played a few games and had fun! I smoked lots of weed with a couple of friends! I got home at like 7am.

Sat night i headed over there at around 830pm again. I got a room and had a great night! Ran into a cock sucker friend who i met up with later...he gives great head! He fell asleep in my room so i wandederd around for a few hours.Showed off hard and ready on the patio a few times! Played pool again,but this time it was with a freind and a hot Asian guy we were talking to at the bar. I was in just socks and a cock ring,plus i used my concealed cam to record the pool game and with guys coming around etc...im nude...its hot lol. I danced a bit bouncing my boner around...while our Asian friend watched and laughed. My friend ended up going to a room with him and screwing around for a bit....but he didn't make him cum....i would have! I hung out and smoked again with friends and had a few beers. I later jerked off on the patio couch while a couple of guys were out there! One hottie with big feet and a shaved head.....said...shoot your load on the couch!....So i did! 4.5 day load saved up! After i came...he said.."eat it...lick it up!" So i did...i mean didnt....the couch had been sat on all night...wasnt going to go there...told him that...and said it was cool if he wanted to eat my sperm! He laughed and said no way..and he hadnt thought about how many people had sat there.
OVerall a pretty satisfying weekend!

Patio at Bathhouse-first hidden cam vid ever!

Buildup to being an Exhibitionist-

I originally posted this blog entry on myspace in Sept 06. It got some of my true feelings down at the time so i re-print them here.

It was really only after having been caught jerking off,by friends or roomates that i realized that turned me on sexually. I even let my friend jesse watch me spunk off 5 or 6 times. And once i met a guy on a phone chat line,who came over with his friend. We got naked and had sex,while his "straight" friend watched us.I remember cuming hard as he watched only 2 feet away. When i thought about it later on,i realized it really turned me on,but i wanted to explore it more.

I had been taken to a bathouse for my first time by a roomate at the time. I was really shy at first about being seen naked outside of the showers,and even when i had a room i would lay on the bed with the door open but with my towel still on.After visiting more bathouses and feeling more comfortable, I progressed to playing with myself under the towel,but still not showing. After a few more months,i got up the nerve to lay on the bed in my underwear,but still covering my bulge with my hands or tucking it down. I would get these shivers of excitement,because it was really turning me on! I started buying underwear that would show my big cock off when i was hard,laying on the bed. Then i got more brave and would show off my cock through the underwear rock hard.And then would even walk around in my undies,although not always hard. I got less shy and would sit on the edge of the hot tub,sometimes covering my cock other times hard and showing,but only to hot guys. The next turn on,was to lay on the bed with my underwear off,next to me,my hands over my cock and balls.It took awhile to not cover my balls and eventually show hard to guys i liked. It was around this time that the bathouse Spa Excess here in Toronto,started to have there Friday night naked parties.They really hyped it,and had cool dj's and hot prizes for people who went naked. In order to be in the draws i had to stay naked most of the night.The first time i did it,i was so nervous being totally nude walking around.You had to check in with the guy in the toy store to prove you were nude to be eligible to win dvd players,mp3 players,tv's etc.I walked around with my cock covered by my hands.

I had also started using hair clippers to trim my chest and pubes and ass.I don't have lots of hair,it grows in sparodic on my chest and i have fine blonde hair on my ass. You have to be careful with the trimmer on your bag,as it can pull and cause a cut and blood. I like the feeling of being naked and trimmed! It shows off my cock more too!

At this time i also thought about how much i am turned on by white socks,so i started wearing them as i walked naked at the baths. I also tried wearing a cock ring and loved it,as it keeps me big and hard longer.I prefer the large size rubber cock ring over the leather thicker one with crome snaps.I have both and they each are good in there own way.The rubber one only comes of when u r soft. I started walking around in nothing but white socks and a cock ring.It gave me a thrill each time.Sometimes i will wear a small size white undershirt.I found it stopped me getting nervous thrills if went into the bar and had a beer almost naked. Later at night at Spa Excess,i would walk through the bar area nude and hard,but usually there was no one or only a few guys there. I progressed to standing in the porn lounge jerking off,but still covering myself if i didnt see guys i liked.

My big step lately was at naked night last week. I actually got the guts up to walk around in just socks and in my cock ring but this time i was so horny and had not jerked of in 4 days,so i was super rock hard with my cock pointing up on an angle. I left my room and walked....without covering myself,i felt awesome and sexually thrilled,the place was packed and guys were noticing my big cock all thick and hard! I had noticed a really hot filipino guy with shoulder length hair and a smooth killer bod earlier. We had noticed each other,so it was awesome when i saw him leaning against a wall in a busy area watching guys walk by.We made eye contact and then he noticed i was rock hard and naked! It really excited me when he looked at my cock and smiled,i didnt think i could,but i actually got harder! I walked by him a few times,and he told me i was so hot! I even walked by once with my foreskin pulled almost all the way back,so he could see my big head! I love being watched! We didn't hook up this time...but i know it will happen. I even walked through the bar when it was busy and my cock was still hard! .......so many other hot things to do too.

Naked Camping

I have a chance to camp for a few days at a campground called "The Point". They have a clothing optional camping section....and thats where i want to stay! My ultimate fantasy is to spend the whole weekend totally nude! Sandals,cockring and a smile! WOW...that gives me a thrill! I will bring my camera and get some photos taken with people! They have a sat night social at the main hall. I will do it in the nude with a boner! Oh yeah lol.Also staying in a tent naked and not having to dress...just put on sun block is very cool! They have trails through the woods too and play area in the middle. My recent break through being able to feel comfortable around all types of guys...not just hot guys lol is helping! It dont bother me that much that probably a good number of the guys camping naked will be older.Thats just a given these days in the community! It really seems to be getting fatter and older lmao. I am supposed to get a ride with and share gas costs with my friend jean he is manager at a toronto bathhouse and a nice guy.He wanted me to maybe rent a cabin or tent with him,but i emailed him and said i wanted to camp alone in the naked area. Hope he is not upset by that! This camping experience would really be amazing for my exhibitionist nudist side! Just being outside naked for a full weekend ......wow.

Ultimate Exhbitionist Weekend

The past weekend was awesome! I started out Friday night going to Spa Excess bathhouse were i basically spent the whole night nude! I started of by hitting the outdoor patio,naked,and smoking a joint. That put me in the mood and i went to the bar area to show it off for a while! Two guys sat off to the side of me,where they could see all i had to show! and boy did i! i got rock hard and bopped to the music! I also picked up some amazing weed from a friend for only $25 a half quarter! Bomb stuff too. I did lots of showing off in the video lounge,bar area and patio I also hung out with friends and smoked weed! I got home and to bed at like 7am.

Saturday night at 830pm i went back to Spa Excess,got a 12hr room with in out privelages and hit up the patio in the nude before it got dark. I stood there smoking my joint,while my cock was a semi attention ...getting lots of attention! I had a drink at the bar with a friend...showed off a bit and then headed off to Goodhandy's at 1030pm.I smoke a big joint before i went in,and instantly checked my clothes. I have been so loking forward to this evening that the second i was naked...i got a boner...and kept it most of the night. I had a pair of knee length tube socks with 3 blues stripes at the top,a pair of skate shoes a camo ball cap and a smile! I forgot my cock ring at Excess.,but hell i didnt need it! I was a the railing on the second level,over the dance floor....dancing with my big cock bouncing around...guys were looking...i stood on the stage and other areas....walking through the bar area rock hard! I envied a guy on the 3rd level sucking the cock of a young guy with a big red mowhawk! Touched his nipples and chest and even his hair! He came hard into the cock suckers mouth and wish it was me! I got nicely blown by a fellow exhibitionist i have fooled around with before....he has a big cock too and loves to show it off! He was on the floor in front of everyone sucking my cock,and i returned the favour! I don't get the action like i used too...even with a big cock....and i think it has to do with being a bit out of shape. At least i have started to work out again....need to build my ass.....trim my tummy and build my chest and arms. Nothing like having a big cock and great body to go with it! I hope to hook up with him again...we are both on squirt and he already sent me a message. I need to have more like minded exhibitionist friends for sure!
I returned to Spa Excess at 145am after getting a chicken shwarma at Alibabas...emmm. I caught last call with a couple of friends...nude of course lol. Showed off in video lounge and patio....were i put on a show of getting hard while guys smoked and watched.I later on got suck the cock of a hot Asian muscle boy with a shaved head. I sucked him and he pulled me off to take puffs of a joint! We went back to my room were i sucked him off and swallowed a big tastey load of cum! I love Asian Sperm! After that i saw a guy on the patio that i have seen around. I was jerking off slowly ...getting hard....rubbing my cock with a skater sock(another story on how i got that later!) He moved closer and talked to me...i told i loved doing what i was doing! I had my english cock ring on and my cock was big and bloated and hard! He was amazed and asked if he could take a picture of it! I said sure...he used his cell cam and took some pics of me and my cock....full shot with me in it...i told him i didnt care...and he could show it too friends...He said he had a bigger better cam in his locker...could he shoot me?...i said sure! SO he got the camera and i lay on the pation couch and rubbed my cock on it and got hard! He took some pics of me humping the couch! I almost came....but did that in my room 918 later on with the window screen totally open and two guys watching! What a weekend!

So its only been a short time that i have really expressed being an exhibitionist,just a few years. Although like i mentioned earlier,i had thoughts since i was a kid about showing off naked or in underwear.
There is a camp site at turkey point Ontario....its called "The point" that offers nude camping sites in a clothing optional area. I really want to check it out! I almost can't imagine being nude camping outside with other people around! It sounds thrilling! Its about a two hour drive from Toronto but i don't have a car or know anyone that has,and no area bus service either! It sucks...but i put an add on a local listing...maybe someone is going and wants to share gas costs. I would really get off on being nude all weekend...just sandals and a cock ring...maybe a hat.Lots of sun block on my foreskin and cock...don't want to burn it or my ass lol There is a pool to and i would love to show my hardon there walking around!
One of my fantasy's is too walk naked and hard in the pride parade! Boners rule! Sometimes i am just naturally hard and can keep it up for quite a bit.Othe times i like to use cock rings,i have rubber ones of different sizes and a leather english one with a second ring that goes around the shaft above the balls,while the leather strap goes around the base of the balls and snaps shut with two closures. I try not to wear them too long,and release them to get blood flowing. I have broken a few blood vessels before leaving it on too long...just little blood shadows on your cock.

I went over to this Asian guys house one time. I meet him through a phone chat line,were he told me he was a photographer. I asked if he took nude pics...he said he did.We arranged to meet and i went to his place for pic shoot. I was dead nervous...this was to fullfill a fantasy i had....but one of the steps on the road to being an exhibitionist! When i showed up,the guy was little and very cute! I asked to take a shower and came out dried off and just wearing socks! He was impressed with my big cock and started taking some pics...which made me get totally hard in front of him! The thing that really turned me on even after that...was his roomate came out to watch the photo shoot! He didn't ask me or his roomie....he just came out to the kitchen to get a drink and ended up staying! Plus he made comments about how hard and big my cock was...that just stoaked my fire! I swear my cock stretched out another inch! He was a well built feirce looking Asian guy and cocky to boot! I let him keep the picks.....and he promised to shown them to friends! That was part of my fantasy! It might sound weird but when i am naked and totally hard, and guys are looking at me and my cock...whether they like it or not.....i feel empowered! Being naked and erect is something that is not seen every day...so people pay attention! North Americans in general are so uptight about being naked in front of others...so prudish and scared if kids see someone naked! People think naked body's are dirty or perverted lol.GO to Europe...hell they sun bathe nude in public parks and even show cocks and balls on tv adds...!! Even teenage nudity isnt worried about! We need move forward and get people to love their bodies not hide them!

Showing off new socks while rock hard with cock ring

My first video taken at Spa Excess in a room.

More Experiences of show off!

Yeah,so i have really been exploring my inner inner exhibitionist fantasys lately! Last month i went to the guys version of the I love Sex Show at Goodhandys bar in Toronto. They have a close check so you can get naked. I arrived and looked around for a bit,had a beer.It was the the usual guys naked first.The older slightly or massively out of shape guys...but hell i guess they realize what they like doing and they do it! After a few hot guys got naked,and after a few beers,i felt comfortable enough to check my clothes. It didn't hurt that the clothes check guy was a friendly cutey! I wore knee length white socks with 3 stripes of colour at the top.My beige Fallen skate shoes and a tight rubber cock ring and a camoflage ball cap! There is a dance floor with a bit of a stage and a back stage area with seats. I went back there and got myself boned up and really hard! I then stood on the stage bopping my hard on to the music! There is a balcony around half the dance floor and it was full of guys watching! It helped that i had the cap on and couldnt really see them when i looked straight ahead! I still get a bit shy if i think about it when showing off,but i am getting used to guys looking at me. I stood there for a while with my legs spread and using my muscles to move my cock up and down! I had trimmed the hair off my chest and bum so i felt silky smooth.A couple of the guys on the dance floor moved close to see my big hard cock and it turned me on.Plus a couple of guys at the edge of the dance floor were pointing me out to each other and making comments on my hard cock! Exhibitionists and Voyeurs need each other! About half the guys at that event were naked or at least in underwear. I ran into a hot Asian freind of mine who remained dressed,but introduced me to a friend of his...who i later sucked.....in a group of 4 guys,my friend pushed my head down and i popped his big big big...uncut thick monster into my mouth! He was about 24 and nice looking but what a cock! It filled my mouth and took it all...to his suprise....i want that one again! My friend also sucked my publicly next to the dance floor and on the stage! I really get off being nude around dressed guys (CMNM) is a fetish....clothed males naked males. It really gives me a thrill!
I was once at a community pool,when i was in college,and after a swim was showering. I had a rawlings gym back that looked really profesional. These two hot teen guys saw it and asked if i was a baseball player! When i turned around to answer them i quickly became totally hard! I continued talking to them as if nothing was happening.....i saw their eyes move down to my throbbing 8inches......and i remember the thrilling feeling it gave me inside...i swear my cock grew another half inch! They looked at each other with a bit of shock but turned back and continued talking to me.....i answered while soaping my hard cock and body...even pulling my foreskin back and washing while they watched! It was my first real show as an exhibitionist....although i didnt realize it then! That whole experience fueled many big orgasm filled jerk off and bed humping sessions by me!

Last weekend at Spa Excess i had a real exciting time too! After talking to a few friends and staff members i like,i got naked except for white socks. I ventured down to the bar area,although it took me many months to get the courage up,usually just hovering about in the hallway outside covering up my cock and balls. What really changed me and pushed me,was a comment on squirt internet site,that is used for cruising and picking up guys. The listing for Spa Excess has guys saying when they will be there and if anyone wants to hook up,or maybe a hot experience they had the night before. Someone had seen me at Excess the Saturday night before.I was in the video lounge in just socks and cock ring. But most of the time i covered up...being shy if someone i didnt get attracted too came in. This led to alot of wasted time for me. The person posting said they thought i was weird for always covering up my big cock when someone came in. He said everyone thought i was hot with a big cock.....but what was i doing! I read this and felt insenced at first...but then on thinking about it...it was all true! I was defeating the purpose of showing off by being selective...too selective! I usually had the best times if i left my eye glasses in my room and couldnt see who was watching. I didnt like the aspect of feeling blind...so now i wear my specs or contacts....but just dont really look more than once at someone watching...unless i think they are cute!
Back to the bar at Excess.....I got my self hard and hot with no cock ring. WHen i entered the bar area i didnt cover up my semi hard cock.I spied to friends sitting on stools at the bar and went around and joined them. I stood slightly back so guys could get a good look at my cock. I also like to dance in place a bit if the song is good. My one friend from the baths,slipped his hand around my cock and played with it a bit...thats all i needed! I was really turned on and soon got totally hard with my uncut cock sticking up in the air!Thats when i did a bit of a walk around to display what i have.....another thrilling experience! My other friend commented out loud about how hard and big i was.Two other guys at the bar were constantly looking at me as i got hard! The ultimate would be to do that with lots of guys at the bar...and with a couple of cuties i can show off too!

I like being watched

When i was 18yrs old i went to stay with my dad for a few weeks were he lived with his new wife and her two kids.My parents had got divorced a few years before,and i lived with my mom and my sister. My step sister was 11 and my step brother was 13. His room was next to the bathroom and the stairs coming down from upstairs. There was access to plumbing etc through a crawl space under the stairs,accesed through a door inside the room closet. My step brother showed me the space and said he used it as a fort. I went into the little space and discovered that you could see right into the shower because there were big gaps through the tiles,were the plumbing came through. I wondered if my step bro ever looked when people were showering,so next time i went in,i kept an eye out for any activity i could see through the cracks.Sure enough i noticed movement and i knew my step brother was in there,looking at me naked in the shower! I got really excited about the prospect of showing of my big cock nice and hard! I turned my back to the wall and worked my dick up big and hard with the soap lather....then i turned around towards the peep hole to show off my big boner! I played with it for a bit,soaping up....jerking....touching myself etc. I knew he had watched me,cause when i came out of the bathroom,he asked me with a sneaky smile if i had a good shower! I said with smerk,yeah it felt great! My biggest show was yet to come.....that story is in the next blog.

First Blog

I guess my early fantasy's involved some exhibitionist tendencies.I used to dream about riding my bike in just my favourite tight blue underwear,or sometimes totally naked.I remember thinking about when i would be old enough to have my own apartment were i could walk around in my undies or totally naked. These fantasy's gave me a thrill,and i would often masturbate thinking about them. When i was 12yrs old,my neighbour across the street and i would hang out in the trailer parked in his driveway. He was 17 or 18yrs old and pretty smart,and one day he asked if i wanted to play a game. I said sure what was it? He told me he would go into the closet and come out naked. Then it would be my turn. When he came out he was naked and totally hard,with his large cock pointing straight up. He came closer and stood right in front of me with his legs apart and his hard cock swaying just inches from my face. I had a real good look at another guys cock and balls for the first time.He told me i could touch it and after thinking about it,i reached out and wrapped my hand around the shaft.It felt warm and i could feel it throbbing a bit. I didnt do more than that,and then he told me it was my turn.I went in the closet and pulled of my clothes and then I came out with a throbbing hard on and just my socks! My neighbour was older and had a big cock,but i was younger and my cock was bigger and harder than his! With a boner,my cock gets so hard,that the skin is shiny and really tight! I have a foreskin and when im totally hard,the skin pulls back partially on the head. My friend made me come close and wrapped his hand around my thick shaft...it felt so good and he slowly jerked it for about 30 seconds before i exploded a big load of sperm all over the place! I couldn't believe how good it felt,but i was so embarresed that i threw my clothes on and ran out quickly! But the thing that stayed with me was that i really loved being naked in front of someone else!

First Blog

This blog is designed to allow me to examine through writing how i became an exhibitionist,and how it has changed me and made me more self aware of myself.Some of the information will be explicit,and i will try to re-tell events the way they happened.I am a gay male 39 yrs old,living in Toronto Canada.